Forgiveness

I don't know why I feel I should write on this subject, however it is something that is close to my heart and I feel that I need to share my experiences with forgiveness. Without sharing really personal moments, I believe that sometimes we are given trials and objects in our life that seem insurmountable to mold us into the people we will become, yet Heavenly Father has given us the amazing gift called Forgiveness. Without forgiveness in our life, we cannot move on or become the person we are to be. There will be that small part of your heart that will ache. Ache that you can deal with family issues, a friend that has wronged you, or a life that should have been great and was wrapped up in issues. As I look at my life, I am grateful for my trials, for my ability to forgive and forget and move on with my life while including those in my life that I thought I could never forgive.

Forgivness is tough, I had to forgive someone that had been in my life for many years and treated me horribly for most of my life. I am grateful in this instance that I had a father and grandmother to help me go through life with love and taught me how to forgive and move on. I knew that I could not carry the anger, pure hate, and non-forgiving attitude for the rest of my life and it wasn't until my grandma sat me down and explained that I cannot carry this grudge because I deserve to go through the forgiveness process and learn. I prayed for an opportunity to forgive this person and get the ball rolling. After many emotions, I found out that she had been treated the same way as a child and that was all she knew. Although I realized that she could have broken the cycle, and to have someone elses child to raise due to the death of the childs mother at a young age should have been a blessing, she could not break that cycle. Through the forgiveness process, I realized that there was a huge weight I didn't I had been carrying for 20 something years was lifted. I could become the person I should and by forgiving, my testimony of the gospel soared to different levels. I was able to know that we are all held accountable for our lives and we don't want to miss a day without forgiving because it may be too late and the rest of your earthly life will be filled with sorrow and regret.

Thanks for bearing with me on this subject. As I started writing I was unsure what to say and thought I would just write a short blurb however it came out longer. I am sure I was meant to share my experience, with who I am unsure.

Sunsets

I don't know about you guys, but I am thinking we have been having the most amazing, inspiring sunsets lately. As I drive home I just want to sit and take the pictures of it. The problem is I don't have my camera with me as often as I would like and my cell phone just does not do it justice. This is one picture that I happened to take with my camera. I have promised that I will carry my camera with me at all times so that I can share these amazing sunsets. Next time you are driving home at sunset, make sure you take a gander. It will really help you appreciate our heavens.

Bowling

So Dale and I are avid bowlers in the winter time. It is an indoor sport and good excercise. We usually go bowling every Friday as a family thing with Dale, Dan and I. This Friday my goal was to beat Dale and Dan in at least 2 games. Yep, with my determination I blasted them twice and I beat the pants off of dale in the third game. Bowling to me is to get out my frustrations and I picture the pins something I am smashing. Wow! That sounded pretty harsh, however sometimes I do. I have a few pictures to share from bowling.

Yea I just got my second strike!

It's Christmas?

I have been meaning to sit down and catch up however, things just seem to get in the way. It's Christmas time already and we have no snow. I just am having a hard time with Christmas this year. With the loss of our family members, I am having a really hard time. I still have the spirit of giving, I just don't feel like decorating. I have this 3 foot santa that is my favorite gift from Dad and Sue. I told Dale and Dan that santa was going to be our Christmas Tree this year and I will set all the presents around him. Dale was ok with that. We are going to be going to St. George for Christmas so we won't miss opening too many presents without a tree. Dan is staying here and we will open more when we get home. I feel so grateful for the blessings I have in my life and know that this life is just a brief glimpse in eternity. Sometimes these trials in our life become larger than life until you get re-focused. I know Tyler and Alissa are up there watching over us, its just really hard to bear that they won't be here this Christmas. My family is having a really hard time with it however I am thankful for the knowlege and affirmations I have had concerning being with my family forever. There is nothing more wonderful then that knowledge. Ok, this is the saddest, most miserable entry, I just wanted to get my real feelings out there to share. I think sometimes we learn from others and their trials. I know they make us stronger and I am grateful for that.

Short Recap

I haven't been that faithful in posting in my blog and I am trying to be better. I thought I would do a short recap of what has been happening.

1. I had a sleep apnea finger test. I have to go in to have the in office sleep test. Not happy about it, however if it helps me feel not so tired then... yippee!
2. I got a new bowling ball... its beautiful and when I get a picture of it I will post it.
3. I have to have surgery.. where you ask? On my thumb. Yea I will leave you in supense until I post a blog on it.
4. I have won a bet that Dale and I made, so he has to watch some chick flick with me. I keep informing him if he does not watch it, he may have to go to High School Musical the sing along version and he would have to sing. LOL!!!
5. I have applied for the lead position on our team. The interview will be great experience of whether I get it or not.
6. Dale was so excited that our family was chosen to participate in the Nielsen ratings for TV. It was a lot of work to record every single show we watched for the week, hey an experience. I watched enough of the Hills, Big World Little people and Jon and Kate plus 8. I think they will continue. LOL!!
7. I bought a surprise gift for our family. I can't tell right now because my husband may read and it is a really surprise. Its all wrapped and waiting for the tree to slide under.
8. I made reservations for Dale to go with his army buddies to the Harley Davidson Ride to Laughlin Nevada. He was going to pull a trailer and this is his first office ride, so I found a cheap hotel for him.
9. I got my flu shot. Everyone should.
10. Hum...I found this great hair product! I know I am grasping at straws...heheheh.

Honoring My Veteran

I couldn't end this day without entering a little post about Veteran's Day. My husband is one of my many heros. He has been in the Army for almost 20 years. He has spent a year and a half in Iraq fighting for our freedom and would do it again until the job is done. He is an amazing husband and soldier and I am so proud of him. I have enclosed some pictures of him in Iraq above as a constant reminder of our Men and Women fighting all over the world to protect our freedom. I found this poem in my notebook. It's perfect for today.

Peace

Our men are fighting

fighting for our freedom,

so many are lost

so many are gone

when will this madness end

when will freedom ring.

men fighting for ...freedom...honor..for me!

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Happy Birthday Alissa!

Alissa, Grandma, Erin

I don't have a updated picture of Alissa scanned yet and my scanner is broke so I found this from a couple of years back. In the picture with Alissa is her favorite cousin Erin and my grandmother who has since passed and I am sure is with Alis during this time. Alissa would have turned 8 this year. I just wanted to do a small post to remember her. She was totally a little girly girl and could rough it with the boys. I remember when ever she talked she would put her hands on her hips and give it to me. We always danced and played when ever we were together. She was a little princess and I miss her terribly every day. I know that she is here among us and I can't wait until I see her again. I wanted to share a dream my brother in law had of Alis. He said that he saw Alis standing there and he asked what she was doing. Alis said that she was fixing rainbows. Paul asked, what kind of rainbows? Do you mean prisms? Alis stated that her job was to make sure all the little rainbows had the right colors. I can really see Heavenly Father giving Alis the job to make sure little rainbows are correct. She would be really good at that. As much as I and my family misses her, it is really nice to know that she is with heavenly father and our family that has since past. Love you Alis and looking forward until we can dance again in heaven.

Vegas Baby!

Dale and I have free trip to Vegas in a couple of weeks. Looking at the economy it may be the last trip we take for a while. I decided I wanted to get to Vegas by Jet Blue airline so we would not have the wear and tear on our truck and easier for us. I also wanted to stay a night early to make the most of our vacation. I called the Ventian and because of AAA and Military discount I got us a 411.00 room for 79.00. I am just so excited. We have to sit through an 1 hour presentation on timeshares, but I am thinking, a free trip, 3 nights, whats an hour out of my time. It's been a long time since Dale and I have taken a trip with just us. I will be sure to take tons of pictures and make sure I blog everything.

Whew...it's October already

I cannot believe how fast this year has gone, although I must say that I am pretty much done for the year. I have never felt so at lost, so much sorrow, gratitude, depressed, and grateful for my life and family. It's going to be Christmas soon and the economy so bad, I will be glad to just be done with the year and start anew or as new as possible. WOW! What a depressing entry! I found a poem that I had written a few years ago that pretty much sums up about the months that have past. Remember that I am not a poem writer, however the words just seemed to flow and I had to write the words.

People
So much pain and sorrow in the world today.
How can one find their way.
Through the darkness I roam
with my heart a breaking

When the tears start to flow
and the sun beaming down
I can see my way through
knowing that this was just
a test, to learn to take risks.

Nothing in life is easy
and it was meant to be
this way.

The people we meet in our lifetime
are our gift to us
Some will bring us heartache
and there will be those that
we spend the rest of our life thanking
god above,
for the joy that they bring.

Good, Better, and Best

In sacrament meeting (church) we had high council speakers. I will be honest most of the time I dread hearing from them because they are a little dry, however I cried through most of the meeting this time. It was about Good, Better, and Best, and how we always are good and do good things however we should always strive to be and do the best we can. I started thinking about reviewing my life and what I could have done best at and what I just settled for Good. I decided that I would choose one thing I would do good at. Just a slow start and once I do more and more it will be better. One of the speakers talked about how if we put water in a jar and then start to put sand, pebbles and then big rocks, the water will overflow because there isn't room. If we put the sand (prayers), pebbles (read scriptures), and then big rocks (pay tithing, attend the temple) in the same jar, with the same amount of water it will all fit and more. He asked that we do the best we can be first and then accomplish what is better next and there will always be room for the good stuff too. He stated that we would always find room to do more in our week. I have decided that I want to go buy the book of Mormon on CD and listen to them while I am driving to work and I want to do better about blogging. So here is the first day of me doing better and best. Sometimes starting slow works better then going full force. I am all about baby steps. LOL's.

Family

I have been thinking quite a bit how I am just grateful for my family. Life is so precious as our family has experienced. I have realized that you don't take anything for granted and how important it is to preserve every memory. I have decided that I will share a few pictures of my family that I have taken this last 3 months. Just for fun! I think I am being a little selfish, however, this blog in a way is my journal and what better than preserving with photos, that sometimes says a thousand words.

This is Taren, Cris, and I in Wyoming. Cowgirls at heart!

Deb, Darce, Cris and Maren after a huge cake fight. I love this picture. Sisters will be sisters I guess!

Dale and I before a 4D Shrek Movie. I love this picture, it makes me laugh!

Ping Pong Fun

So we have a ping pong table at work. It is a nice break and has became a regular morning and afternoon play time. There are four of us that usually play and we have a great time together. I must say that I have not laughed at work as much as I have while playing ping pong. I have really grown to appreciate the game and competitiveness. I just wanted to share my love of Ping pong with you. The pictures below is probably what I look like playing ping pong. Even though I am not that old, the wrinkles do show and the intensity of my face is probably the same. LOL!

Saluting our Troops

Every year in September the National Guard celebrates Govenors day. It's a fun day with the Helicopters, tanks, climbing walls, and most of the times Zip lines. This years I took my sister Cris, Mark(my nephew ping) Josh (my nephey Joshy), and my sister Maren. We met up with Dale and had a great time. Here are some pictures of the fun day.

This is Dale (my hero) with Ping and Joshy.

It's so fun to see the in and outs of the blackhawk helicopters. I could spend all day looking and sitting in their seats. I took lots of fun pictures so bear with me. This may be a very long blog.

This is Josh, Dale, and Marky in the back of the holitzer tank, then us girls and the kids in the little tank that hauls all the bullets for the tank. It's quite a cute little thing, however in war would not be too fun to be in because they have no way of protecting themselves.

Dale and Marky pulling a funny picture. Markey, me, and Joshy in front of the Apache Helicopter. It amazes me that these huge helicopters can actually take off. While we were walking around, the recuiters were driving around a golf cart that looked like a hummer. I had to get a ride, so the kids and I got in and took a cruise around. Amazingly enough, it even had a great stereo. I have decided I want one. They are so cute!!

Strange Dreams

The other morning, I had this strange dream. It seemed to me like it had lasted for 4 hours and yet today I can remember it as if I had just woke up. I wanted to share it with you.

It was a dark world we were in, there was never light just darkness. I was in a group of people, some were family other were people I didn't know. Dale led the pack with Shadow on a chain leash. There were several dogs and I can still hear the clang of the chains and the dogs constantly growling as we walked around. We all had guns and were dressed like the 1950 green soldier uniforms. We had a mission to accomplish, yet it was not killing people it was something like to get from point a to point b, however it was still very scary. We would hide in the floor boards in people's homes. While hiding we would strategize our next day's journey. Sometimes we would hide in peoples apartment that had been vacated, I presume we broke into it or the doors were just broken down. It's strange because some times at night, the evil men we were hiding from would be so close I could and my whole soul could feel the evil and they would look at me however there was some field protecting us from getting caught. The dream was our journey, I wonder what really it means. I very rarely dream like this and when I do, it seems like it is concerning the end of the world. If I was a dream reader and from my feelings I had as I woke up was that there is going to be evil in the world, there is going to be trials, however, if I but keep my beliefs in Christ strong and do as I should, I will live with him again and be free of the evil that lurks now. So, tell me what you think the dream means... I just am thinking about the last dream I had in May when the hospital gave me too much meds. It was monkeys dancing on sponge cake floating in 7-up. This dream is a long way from the one I had then.

Girls Night Out

Nothing like going out just with the girls. My sisters decided that we should go to the fair and rodeo while the guys were at the UTES game. We had a great time and the rodeo was amazing. I think my favorite was the saddle broncs, the bulls usually is my favorite however they only did about 3 of them. Big dissappointment! All in all it was great. So my niece who is in high school brought her new boyfriend (yes I did say girls, however we did have our token males) with us. I just had a hard time with seeing them together. She in my eyes is still my little niece. It's so funny because with all of my sisters there is one that walks so fast, she is the mother of my niece and so my neice walks fast also. The rest of us just enjoys our stroll and laughes, talkes to people and just have fun. We kind of got lost and so my sister who is speed walker left us a pop corn trail to find the way. It was hilarious and we stopped and picked up every piece of pop corn (which of course took us longer) so we could give it back to them, well that lasted till we were almost there and then we felt ants crawling on us. LOL! We all had a great time. We petted all the animals we could, even some we were not suppose to and laughed a lot. I think since the accident that was the first time we all had a good time. We also had my nephew Tylers (who is now deceased) former girlfriend. She is having a hard time with school starting and not having TY around, so it was really fun having her around and getting to know her. Whew! I do have some pictures on my phone as soon as I figure out how to get them downloaded.

Holy Cow!

I came home from work today. Dale had ripped out a recipee out of some cooking book at work and is going to cook it for me. It's like chicken in cornmeal with lettuce and something else. It looks pretty good. This is the first time he has ever did this and I am so proud of him. Hopefully, it will taste good and I will take a picture of it and post on this blog. Again another reason to be grateful for my husband.

WoW! It' been a while!

I just noticed that it has been quite a while since I have blogged. I really am setting a goal to blog at least every other day, as this will serve as my journal, so look forward to more info on the life of Deb. Lately I have been adjusting to the 4-10 work week. It's been an adjustment for me because I am so tired every night and then I want to sleep through the weekend, however it is getting easier and Dale and I have been having a great time spending the time together. We have spent a lot of time riding our bikes and swimming at Camp Williams. Work has been interesting and hard at the same time. I have become grateful for the life I lead. There are so many people out there that have issues with drugs and alcohol and grateful for not dealing with those type of things in my life. I am glad that I am in a situation to try and make a difference in their lifes. It makes this life rewarding.

The Big 10!

So it has been a while since I have really been able to blog, so I decided to do the top 10 most exciting things that has happened this month. Ready.... set... go...

1. Yea, I get 3 day weekends now that the 4 day workweek has begun!
2. Julia (coworker) and I won a ping pong game by the skin of my teeth... reason we were losing however is because of me...oops.
3. My husband and I went on a nice ride to the canyon for fun.
4. I got a raise! (actually that happened in July, I am just still so excited)
5. I signed up for bill pay finally.... I think I am the last one on this earth do to so.
6. I got to spend the day swimming at Camp Williams with my family.
7. My car was sick and it was an easy and cheap fix, thanks to my brother-in-law.
8. Dale and I got free vacation to Las Vegas and Orlando, however, we have to sit through an hour presentation.
9. I have been doing really well exercising every day!
10. The big ten... hum... I received a letter and pictures from my sister on a mission.

Wow.. that was harder than I thought! The month isn't over yet and I am sure there will be more fun stuff coming.

Whew!!!

I was just taking a break from life and thought that I would take a moment to update my blog. Life has dealt my family some pretty hard knocks lately. We are trying to put things together, my sister is still trying to figure out how to go on without her husband, my niece and nephew. I am finally appreciating the blessings that heavenly father has given me. I am so grateful for the knowledge of heaven and life after we leave this existence. Its so amazing to really be excited to leave this earth when you time is up. Not that I am wanting to go now, I am thinking when I am 67 it will be good...he...he..he... I have learned through all this, how important it is to really enjoy life and not take anything or anyone for granite. I have really made a point to not miss a moment to tell Dale I love him, i panic now if he leaves for work with out me being able to tell him how much he means to me. I have really gotten a new look at life and taking these lessons for life.

Crazy Moments at Work

These are pictures of me at work. Thought that I would share them with you....hehehehe..

This one is after a game of ping pong!


This one after I went through a preformance review with my supervisor.

Thankful for Family

At times of sorrow, comes an incredible gratefulness for family. I decided that I would put some pictures on of family this last week in our times we tried to get over our grief. Just a little bit of playing around during a week of sadness.

Sorrow and Blessings

This is the first time I have had a chance to just breathe in 3 days. Sunday night there was an accident near Hanksville, Utah. My brother in law, my sister and her 3 kids plus friends were in a horrible accident. We have lost my brother in law, my 7 year old niece which was our princess and my 15 year old nephew. I can't figure out words that describe our lost. I just have sat and cried for days and the tears seem to keep flowing and the engery keeps going. There have been times that my family has not slept for 2 days. During all this sorrow, there have been many blessings and seeds planted of the gospel. I have just sat and cried with many of my sisters because we have been so overwhelmed with the gratitude we feel for people and strangers we don't even know. I talked to a lady that donated a hand built casket for my beloved niece. It was just an amazing thing that this stranger is doing for us. We have had so many strangers tell us they are coming to the funeral to support the family because of the sorrow they have felt. There was a man that stopped right after the accident, at the time my sister was trying to lift the car which was on my niece. That kind stranger did cpr on my dear Alissa for 45 minutes until the highway patrol pulled him off and he went to my precious Tyler and then to my great Brother in Law. He has called my family because he has felt the same loss as we. He will be at the funeral and we are grateful that he will be there to help us through this trying time. We have people looking for my Alissa's scotty dog which was alive with the other dogs. We are still amazed and grateful the the grace of our heavenly father to allow my dear sister and amazing 10 year old nephew Marky (ping) to come out with only a few bumps. My nephew Ping is just a little man. He has been telling us about the accident and what he saw. Sometimes in more detail than we can even handle and he has just stayed strong. He will occasionally say random comments as he allows himself to really feel things. Tonight he said that he wishes God would just take people when they were too old to do anything. Such insight and such a great little boy who is so strong and sometimes will come and cheer us up when we are having our moments. I happen to be having one of those moments and he just said its ok, and gave me a hug... then of course he knows that playing WII takes my mind of things.. and tells me he is going to kick my butt in tennis. Its amazing how much strength he gives kids who have seen more than any adult should see. My sister is another story, she was praying last week and asked for a sign to see if there really was a god. She however, has been willing to listen to all of us about the plan of salvation and what we are hear on earth for. The hardest thing for me to see is her sitting there with stitches and bruises holding my Alissa and Tylers favorite stuff animals. She refused to wash her right hand because it has Alissa's blood on it and believes that is the only thing she has of her daughter. So many heart wrenching times, yet I am trying to keep that peace I felt on Sunday when we found out. I am just still working through my emotions, trying to keep them under control and yet in many times we all just fall apart. People coming to the house that we don't even know, and seeing the tears of Tyler's best friends that are just torn apart. Their old teachers and people who were always there for them. Their ward has been awesome. We have recieved so much food at my sisters house. Although I am really tired on cold cuts and rolls.. we have had that for 3 days.. today someone brought great pasta salad and soup it was a nice change. However, we are so blessed to have people care so much about my sister and her family that they would care to bring so much in. Well I have to go to bed, the viewing is tomorrow. Its going to be a hard day and Friday is the funeral. I just keep the thought of eternity and that heavenly father has a plan for us and he is there with us carrying us through the hard times. I will write more and post pictures as I can.

Flaming Gorge Trip Day One

We decided to go to Flaming Gorge with my sister Lori and her family. We were so excited to be up in the mountains and to have a fun relaxing trip. We rented a boat so that we would have 2 boats up there for those who wanted to put put around or those who just wanted to fish. This turned out to be one of those trying vacations that never seem to end. We were told that we could not bring Shadow. Dale was not happy about that however I figured he would come up with a reason he had to take Shadow and he was right. He called the hotel we were staying and told him that he was a veteran and suffered from Post Tramatic Syndrom. The hotel manager stated that we could take shadow. I knew from the first day this trip was going to turn out to one of those adventures in life that you never want to re-live. We were loaded and ready to go to Lori and Paul's house to get them. We were driving down Bangeter and realized the guy in front of us tire was blowing out. So of course the great citizen my husband is when we got to the stop light he ran about 4 cars down to tell the guy his tire had blown out (this is because he kept driving and didn't seem to notice it was blown out). The guy just stared at him, Dale just ran back to the truck and said he thinks the guy is on something and/or the car is stolen. Well the guy kept driving down the road around 55 miles per hour on a tire that was not there. People were honking and yelling at him however he just went on down the road. Strange thing to have happen and should have told us something about the rest of the trip. Well we were on our way. Thinking that Flaming Gorge was only 2 hours away, we were not ready fro 4 hours and steep switchbacks. Shadow was right there with his dad though, helping him through the stress.

While we were driving through Wyoming I realized that I didn't put a lot of the snacks for us in the front of the cab (thinking that it was only 2 hours drive). Well we could not stop because we didn't know our way and Paul a regular speed driver was hard to keep track of. So as we were starvng to death, I was looking at the clouds and was imaging them looking like mashed potatoes and how yummy it would be at that point. Dale was not happy and I was trying to keep him from dying of hunger. When we got to the top of the mountain we had to pay 5 dollars a day. Another thing I didn't know about. Well not having correct change I had to leave a 20.00 about 10 dollars too much... I was so frustrated. Then we go to leave and our tire rim on the boat flew off, I ended up jogging 1/2 a mile to grab it. Luckily a stranger had picked it up and was walking toward me. I through it in the back of the truck and we were on our way.

So after 4 hours we arrived at our destination with a lot of me calming Dale down because of the drive. We were excited because it was so beatiful. We pulled in after Lori and Paul and were anxious to see what kind of place we were staying in. After Paul and Dale went to check it out they came back and said there was no place for us to cook in there. Well, that would not have been bad normally, however we brought all our food to be cooked and we would just starve... so Paul went to talk to reservations and came back saying that we were staying in a trailer. Well, my first thought was a little trailer with no bathroom... it was a little better than that. It was a single wide, with a big porch and no air condition. Oh my bad, it had a little window air condition that kept the kitchen barable around 89 degrees. Being that it happened to be around 98 degrees in there. We were still too excited to even care. There were enough bathrooms to share and bedrooms for everyone.. we were happy.

The best thing about the trailer is the mule deer would come almost right up to us and just sit and look at us. These are the pictures of the trailer and the deer.

A horse is a horse of course...

So I was at my sisters new house and they happen to have their horses actually located right behind their house. I took a few different pictures and wanted to share them. I really have always wanted a horse, however just have never had one. I love to take advantage of riding as much as I can. Here are Doc and a a strange horse.

Heaven's Finest

I don't know why, but for some reason I am really into taking pictures of sunrises and sunsets. I just think we don't appreciate what Heavenly Father has given us. So I have put some of my pictures on the blog, hoping that once in a while more people will sit and appreciate the show from our heavens.

The Love of My Life

One thing about my husband that I love is his willingness to be crazy once in a while and put away his Army attitude gruff exterior. These are two pictures of a night when Sierra and I were playing around with a blanket and being models and practicing our walks. Ok, don't laugh. We were practicing our walks because Sierra had entered into a beauty pageant type of thing and needed to walk on stage. So as we were practicing our walks with the blanket Dale comes up and acts like a lady screaming. It was so funny, I added my slip to his head and took some pictures. Truth be known, he would not be happy if he knew I put these on my blog for the world to see. This was certainly a moment in time when I go... ahhhh... and revel in the love I have for him.

Motorcycles Don't Have Windows!!

So, I know this is crazy however one of the most important lessons I learned while driving my motorcycle is that things I say can be heard by other drivers with their windows rolled down. I learned this lesson a couple of weeks ago. I was driving down the street and I looked at the car next to me and he was texting and driving at the same time. I suddenly blurted what are you thinking texting and driving at the same time, do you know how dangerous that is!!! He suddenly looked at me and stated he was sorry and I turned red as can be. I motioned for Dale to come up beside me at the stop light and I promptly told him I forgot that we don't have windows and I have to be aware how loud I talk when I am on the bike. He just laughed. A lesson learned for sure.

My Boy Shadow

I found these pictures when preparing for a photo book. I just had to put them on my blog because they are the cutest ever. It was Halloween and I just dressed Shadow in Dales Army PT uniform. He loved it and greeted the door everytime to give little treats. He thought he was king of the neighborhood. I am actually surprised that he wore the hat.

Aftermath

Well, it has been a week and one day when I decided to stop breathing. I am still bruised and battered a little, however, indeed grateful that heavenly father granted me my life. Going to work was like a fog.. my memory was not good, however through time I have worked my way through the fog and now see blue sky. I have had a really tough time. I feel like I am going through detox. They had given me 3 pages of meds that I had been given during my 3 days in the hospital. It has affected my eyesight, balance, emotions, sleep, and just plain feeling yucky. I have been told that it takes almost 2 months for all the drugs to pass your body. I am indeed grateful for to be alive and grateful for the ability and determination that has been given me to get through what I am going through.

Blessings

There never has been a time that I have felt so glad to be alive as I am now. It's a long story and I may have to do this in small increments due to just getting out of the hospital and really shakey. It all started last Thursday. I was getting pretty sick and decided to go to the doctor late to get hep with my heavy feeling chest and cough. I thought about Saturday I was feeling pretty good. I woke up Sunday feeling worse than ever. I told Dale that I needed to go the the emergency room. So he got up and took me. When we got to ER they took me straight to the room, 2 hours later someone came in to find out what was going on. Dale explained what had gone on and that I was really dehydrated and needed some strong antibotics. The ER was really crazy and busy. All I really remember is Dale being patient and just sitting with me. We were watching the Jazz games, well Dale was I was not and the nurse came in and asked if I was in pain, I told her my throat hurt due to not being able to get water... later the nurse came in and said she was giving me something for the pain. Dale thinking motrin or something, the next thing I know she was giving the meds through the iv and i remember looking at Dale wanting to tell him to have her stop and I passed out. Dale noticed immediatly that something was wrong. The bells and whistles were going off and no one seemed to care. Dale came over and was shaking me, looked into my eyes and realized I had stopped breathing all together. Dale started yelling, my lips were turning blue and i was not alive. They moved me to another room, and got me back, the first thing I know is that I wanted Dale. I wanted Dale holding my hand, they would not let me and i pulled the shirts of people around me and pulled them to me and told them I am ok, get me my husband. They finanally had him in the doorway and moved him to me. I can honestly say that I am grateful for a husband that was there with me and was the one who realized I was gone. They moved me into the ICU and then told me that my enzimes were off in my liver. It just seemed that I have gone from worse to worse. I was upset I could not even talk. Getting a second chance in life gets you thinking a lot. I don't know, I am grateful that I am finally out of the hospital. I am black and blue and beat up pretty good. All of this they put me into a sort of diabetic. Something I am grateful that I am not. I have lived that life for 2 days and do not want to do it again. I am grateful for a loving husband that loves me no matter what and has actually saved me. I am pretty shakey right now. I will explain more.. just felt I wanted to write something down before these thoughts became dull.

My New Bike

Well, I have finally done it. I got me a bike. I calculated all the gas I would save if I had a bike to ride in the summer. I figured i would save 200.00 a month. So, with the help from my dear sweet husband, I got me a 2007 Yamaha Virago. The picture is exactly like mine to the T. Black Cherry sparkle color. Its a 250 CC engine which is perfect for me. I am taking a class at the college to help me learn to drive the bike better. Ahhh.... nothing better than to feel the wind on your face....

Friends

I just wanted to give my good friend Aim recognition. I have known her for almost 25 years. We were roommates many years ago. We have been through similar things in our marriage and have relied on each other through the bad times. Even though she lives in Oregon now, we speak often and visit each other as much as we can. These pictures were in St. George when we were visitng our other friend Doug. When we get together we are doing crazy stuff like this often. Remember my motto??? Let your hair down and ... act your shoesize! Yee Haw!

The A to Z Tag

Ok, this is my first tag and I am a little behind in getting it on my blog. Well.. here it goes.

A attached or single = Attached to the love of my life, I am lucky because it is forever and all eternities.

B best friend= Hum... this is hard. First of all my sisters, my husband are my best friends. I have a friend Aim, she and I have been through a lot together, we have known each other for over 25 years. I consider her one of my many best friends.

C cake or pie= Cake Angel Food with Strawberries my favorite.

D day of choice= Well its tied Thursday because its close to Friday. Sunday is my rejuvenation day.

E essential item= my camera. Heavenly father has blessed us with so many beautiful things. I need to capture it all.

F favorite color= Its a 3 way tie Purple, Yellow, and Pink. Tough choice.

G gummy bears or worms = neither

H hometown = Riverton, Wyoming

I indulgences= cooking magazines, chocolate covered strawberries...gotta have them

J january or july= July for sure

K kids= no kids yet many.

L life isnt complete without= family, friends and my heavenly father

M marriage date= well for the first 15 years I thought it was a different date... the real thing is 9-11

N number of brothers and sisters= 2 brothers, 6 sisters

O oranges or apples= oranges

P phobias or fears= extreme fear of spiders, fear I am not being the person heavenly father wants me to be.

Q quote= No one can make you feel inferior by Elenanor Roosevelt.

R= reason to smile= family, the beautiful sunrises, when my customers get a job, a funny movie, my husbands laugh

S season of choice= spring for sure

T tag seven: well since everyone I know has done this tag...hum.. I have no one to tag.. yippee

U unknown fact about me= I love to cook, photography, and I have only got one speeding ticket my driving career...and that was erased.

V vegie= trees, aspargas, beans, corn, all vegies except squash.

W worst habit= hitting the snooze button too many times in the morning

X xray or ultrasound = hum.. i have had so many xrays in my lifetime.. oh well

Z zodiac sign= Aries

Sea World

So I am running a little behind in my adventures in Life. I have yet to post our Sea World pictures from our vacation in November. The one thing I absolutely love about Florida is the flowers that are in abundance. Its the most amazing thing ever.

Seal Lions are the most energetic and loudest animal in Sea World. They were just too cute to pass up getting a few shots. I have more pictures and exciting things to talk about on our adventure through SeaWorld. I will have to come back and add when my pictures are working better.